03.31.23 | 12:40PM
My wife and son shared a sweet moment of love last night. After I got home from work last night, Katie and I worked on our “personal task list” for Riley‘s memorial service near the end of this month. Quickly overwhelmed and with tears flowing, Carter was there to comfort his momma, who was in need and was being hit with all the emotions of planning for our sons memorial service. We’ve had TREMENDOUS support with my sister, Sadina taking on so many tasks and details with this, but there are a few things we, as parents, need to step up and do, as difficult as it is.
I share this not as grief porn, but as the journey, we are going through to help me cope with the loss and to seek comfort within the community, which we have so readily gotten. We continue to look for bright spots in our lives, and we’re finding them (I’ll post more about these blessings, later). But for now, this one seemed pretty fitting for the way we are all feeling today, melancholy.
Side note: The bright spot on the TV in the background, is a reflection of the lamp that we keep on during the day next to our son’s ashes and trinkets of love on our bookshelves (cologne, quartz rocks, his little gold findings, Cal Fire hat, and badge, etc.)
We can only handle so much “Riley” time, before our batteries our quickly drained, emotionally and physically. So with that, I do apologize for the lack of responses to messages, texts, etc… as it’s quite overwhelming as we still work through this, nearly one month later.